For many years I struggled with the idea of enough.
I had a person in my life who consistently made me feel as if I wasn't good enough. Not good enough to have for the weekend (if something else "better" came up), not good enough to support at school functions, and not good enough to work on a real family relationship with.
A year ago, I finally expressed my many years of hurt feelings to that person, and explained that he wouldn't make my children feel as terrible as he made me feel. They are enough!
I still feel bad when holidays come and go with only a card and superficial, quick phone call (because to me family is much more than that). But, I am learning to let it go. If I am not enough for that person to invest time in, fine. I am enough for me!
Last night after an event with my husband, my heart is aching because he is going through a similar situation, with a different type of family.
It appears that he is not be good enough in some people's eyes, and that is hurting him. He excels at what he does, only to be discounted for his achievements. It makes me sad when he has huge accomplishments (more than his peers), only to be forgotten about or given less than sincere recognition. He is enough!
This is what I prayed last night:
"Dear Lord,
Thank you for the gift of J! He is a wonderful man and his hard work and dedication are so admirable. Tonight was difficult. It's hard to see him hurting. Lord, please be with J and help him realize that he is enough! Help him see all the amazing things about himself, and give him the strength to continue to do his best.
In Jesus' name I pray.
Amen!"
5 comments:
You guys are lucky to have one another, and because of it, you have two adorable children. They are growing up with wonderful parents who can teach the gift of love.
I am so proud of him - of both of you. LYMI
AMEN. AMEN, AMEN, AMEN!!
not only is he enough, he is a fantastic father and husband.
and not only are you enough, you're a ridiculously awesome mother and wife AND SISTER. i love you guys!!
I think that Jon is pretty fantastic and that both of you together make something that is MORE THAN enough. Much love to the Edwards family from me and mine! And Sara, this post is beautiful. I read it this morning and have had it in the back of my head all day. You are a good wife!
Oh Sara, both you and Jon are enough and more! You are raising two wonderful children and as much as whatever is going on hurts, the only thing that counts in the end is how much you, and the kids love him, which is unconditionally.
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