Waiting (updated)

Well, I am still waiting to hear back about the job for which I interviewed last week. I am 99.9% sure that I will not be offered the position because I just don't feel that the interview went that spectacularly (although I would be thrilled if I am wrong). Like I said before, it wasn't bad. The interview committee was pleasant and I answered each question and had examples, but I don't have a good feeling.

Have you ever been waiting for impending bad news? It's horrible.

I am trying to prepare myself.

I keep trying to be positive and act like it is not a huge deal that I won't be offered this position. But, it is a huge deal! After to applying to so many positions over the past few years, and having a few "thank you, but no thank you" phone calls, it really does bother me. I don't want to be rejected again. I want a full time teaching job; a job where I can positively reach many children every day (not only half a day) and assist in the financial support of my family.

I know the Lord has plans. I know that everything happens for a reason. I know that He will never give us more than we can handle. However, that doesn't make any of this any easier.

So, I continue to wait, continue to pray, and to continue to hope that my feeling is wrong. Although I am trying to prepare if it's not.

Update: Well, I was right. I was NOT offered the position. I am disappointed, but some other options are on the horizon. I pray that one of these will come to fruition, as I think that either would be a good fit for me and them. Only time will tell. Please keep me and my family in your prayers. Thanks, and I will continue to keep you updated.