Back To Square One

Yesterday I had an interview, and it went well. The job was ideal - a first grade job, in my current district, with a great team, and it was full time. Perfect!

Today I found out that I was the second choice for the position. It has been offered to a teacher from in that specific building. I understand the committees decision, and would appreciate that courtesy if it had been in my building. However, that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

This whole job reduction, job loss, job hunting experience has seemed like a slow, heart-wrenching death; the death of my career. Seriously. I love teaching. Not knowing if I will be able to teach next year is like losing something near and dear to me. There seems to be a whole grief process - I have cried, been angry, frustrated, sad, nervous, and scared beyond belief.

I keep praying, applying to vancancies, and trying to stay positive. I don't know what else to do. I can't afford to stay at home, I can't really afford to substitute teach (with the cost of child care), and I have even looked at, and applied to, administrative jobs, however, that seems even more scarce (and I absolutely don't want to stop teaching - it is my passion - too bad I can't pay the bills with passion)...

So, here I am, back to square one - bumped out of my position with next to nothing on the horizon.

Please keep us in your prayers! Something HAS to work out, right?!